Little Yellow Truck

I've been checking out this cute little yellow truck in my parking lot for some time now. It looks like something that belongs in Preston Idaho. The steering wheel is really old looking. It reminds me of my dad's '57 Jeep. The tires are brand new and I love the little hooks on the exterior rim of the bed. It's a Datsun and from my brief google search I think it might be from the 70's.

**My dad just told me that he owned a truck almost identitcal to this when I was really little. I don't remember it at all but I guess now we know why I'm so drawn to it. It's really sweet I think.

Look Mom! We're not the only ones......

http://theapronstage.com/2009/05/14/in-a-panic/

Louise

Let’s discuss panic and anxiety disorder. I had my first panic attack when I had two toddlers a year apart, and my mother-in-law had just visited for a month. I was minding my own business when suddenly I couldn’t breathe, and my face and limbs got all prickly and numb, but my heart was hammering. It felt like I was being forced into a deep hole from which there was no return. Panic.

Contrary to what it feels like, a panic attack is when you’re taking in too much oxygen rather than suffocating. The way to make it go away is to breathe into a pillow or jam your mouth and nose into a paper bag. Or take a tranquilizer, which no person experiencing her first panic attack ever has on hand. Even knowing this information, the second panic attack feels no better than the first. It always feels like you’re going to die.

Anxiety is more generalized, but can keep you under the covers some days and can lead to depression, because it’s really tiresome to be anxious all the time. And the thing is if you don’t take it by the horns, it’s worse. You have to do your life’s work despite the anxiety and panic. Bummer.

Here are some helps not in any particular order:1) Decide to be imperfect. 2) Stop worrying about what other people think about you. 3)Exercise, exercise, exercise. (I hate this one the most). 4) Find someone to talk to. If your husband isn’t good at this, then find a girlfriend. Find a good therapist. (Not all therapists are equal—shop around) 5) Pray for guidance. Be specific. 6) Don’t be afraid of medication. This scares young people, but women of a certain age know that medication is a gift from God. It’s a gift. Insulin is a gift; so are serotonin inhibitors.7) Don’t repeatedly thank your husband for “putting up with you.” He’s probably got some other kind of anxiety disorder like obsessive/compulsive disorder and is driving you out of your mind. 8) Take care of yourself. It’s not selfish. It’s good sense. (Oprah is right about this). 9) Turn dark thoughts into positive affirmations. 10) There is no ten. 11) Face your chemistry. Anxiety and panic disorders are chemical disorders and run in families. 12) Stop talking about having a nervous breakdown. There is no such thing as a nervous breakdown, especially now days with excellent meds. 13)Pretend you’re a cat and find a square of sunshine.

Finally, you’re not going mad (despite your husband or mother-in-law). It’s really hard to go mad. Try hallucinating. Try hearing voices. It’s really hard to do. (Although I often hear muffled radio voices late at night. Sometimes I go downstairs to see if the radio is on. Sometimes, I just raise my head off the pillow. I don’t know what it means, and I don’t care).

A Juicy One

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People. (but don't say their name)

1. You are not as cool as you think you are.

2. I want to submit your name to 'What Not to Wear."

3. I think you would be happier with me, but I'm not sure I would be happier with you.

4. I think your husband is a pervert.

5. I still wish you would have chosen someone else.

6. Sorry if I make you feel dumb, but I think you really are dumb.

7. Do you know how ridiculous you sound?

8. I wish you could see the world more like I do.

(10 minute pause because I can't think of anything else to say. I think this is a good thing)

9. I wish I wouldn't have listened to you.

10. Lighten up and live a little.

Nine things about myself.

1. I just adopted a dog. I adopted because its cheap, not because I'm big-hearted.

2. I'm messy. There, I said it.

3. I really don't like my natural hair color.

4. I connect best with people who have light colored eyes (blue, green, light brown)

5. I think my mom is an attractive woman. I can only hope I look as good as her when I'm 50.

6. I like that I have freckles. They cover blemishes.

7. I would spend $150+ on a pair of good jeans. (But I never have...yet)

8. I've had over 50 roommates during my lifetime. I only disliked a few of them.

9. I can't stand Pepto Bismol. I always buy the pill version.

Eight ways to win my heart.

Note:**These are not all must-haves.

1. Make me laugh.

2. Touch my hand, shoulder, arm, knee when you talk to me.

3. Help people move regularly.

4. Tip well (20% is the minimum)

5. Play the guitar. 6. Drive a foreign car.

7. Be non-judgmental.

8. Be spontaneous but not dangerously spontaneous.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. What am I going to eat?

2. Is my dog ok?

3. Should I move away from Vegas?

4. How many pairs of clean underwear do I have left? (I hate laundry)

5. Am I going to lose my job by the end of the year?

6. What does that person do for a living to be able to afford that HUGE house?

7. When will the summer be over? Too hot.

Six things I do before I fall asleep

1. Turn on my fan.

2. Shut my door.

3. Put dog in her kennel.

4. Turn off lights.

5. Get under blanket with my feet sticking out of the bottom.

6. Smoosh my pillow into the perfect shape for my head.

Five people who mean a lot to me. (in no order whatsoever)

1. Breeann Lemke Heaton

2. Merrin McWilliams James

3. Bethany Stanley

4. Heather Goodrich Shuler

5. Julianne Partridge

Four things you're wearing right now.

1. Pink Polo

2. Jeans

3. Socks

4. Keen's

Three songs that you like listen to .

1. "People Should Smile More" by ....

2. "Mad" by Neyo

3. "Senorita" by Justin Timberlake

Two things you want to do before you die.

1. Have a family of my own.

2. Have a doctorate degree.

One confession.

**So many to choose from, this is hard.

1. Sometimes I read Cosmo's tips on you know what. I shouldn't admit that here I know. Too late. NOW IT'S YOUR TURN.

Update on UNLV

I reported earlier that I was going to UNLV this fall but plans have changed. They called us in at work a month ago and cut everyone's salaries by 10%. I don't want to go into debt for school and I KNOW that I will go back someday. For now though, I'm going to hunker down and wait for the storm to pass.

Lexy the Dog

Why did I get a dog?
-I am getting bored just taking care of myself all day, every day.
-Dogs help with depression. Who can't use a bit of cheering up right?

Why did I choose the name Lexy?
-I read that dogs can recognize the letter 'X' easily.
-Lexy rolls off of the tongue easier than Roxy, which was my 2nd choice.

Why did I pick this specific dog?
-I wanted a non-shedder.
-I wanted a non-puppy.
-I wanted an easily portable dog.

Where did I get her?
-I adopted her from the pound. ($155)

Why is she wearing a cone?
-At the pound they include spaying (or neutering), all vaccines and a microchip.

Other information...
-They shaved her hair off. When it grows back, she'll be cuter.
-She is only 1/2 lb underweight according to the vet.
-She likes to wake up and play between 3-4 a.m...........zzzz

SYTYCD

My top ten ranked 1-10

Jeanine Mason1st

Brandon Bryant
2nd

Kayla Radomski
4th

Melissa Sandvig
Eliminated

Randi Evans
Eliminated

Janette Manrara
Eliminated

Evan Kasprzak
3rd

Jason Glover
Eliminated

Kupono Aweau
Eliminated

Ade Obayomi
Eliminated